i have a feeling that someones mad at me...but im not too sure...and i aint gonna apologize for something if i dont know what im apologizing for...
all my life ive been stuck being the middle-person...and its driving me up the wall...between couples fighting, or two people liking each other but not having the guts to say and needing an in-between, or two pals fighting and too stubborn to make the first move...
in a way its kinda the issue of confrontation right? everyones scared of confrontations, afraid of repercussions, so its all good if someones there to do you're dirty work for you...so u dont get you're hands quite as dirty as you're supposed to..and the in-between theoratically has no problems cause its NOT his problem...hes just a medium..a communication device...
but hey, its not like i dont like helping people..and sometimes being a middle-person sorta just HAPPENS ya know? someone asks u for help,or for an ear to listen, and you do...you listen,and give some comments,advice...then u bump into the other party and they ask for the same thing...but ure half-lying to them, cause you know the other side of the story and your advices are recycled...and now, are you responsible for patching them up? like in that National Treasure movie "when there is a crisis, those who have the ability to help are responsible for the safety of the people" or something along those lines...
then you think, hey its none of my buisness, they can sort it out themselves, im just an ear...then one of the parties find out uve been talking to the other party and pumps you for information...you dodge the questions, they get pissed, and you're accused of 'taking his side'...
its hard being 100% neutral cause everyone has their opinions...but i wish i could just be totally neutral.. just like Switzerland...sitting on the fence, dressed in white, waiting for the next set of people who need an ear to listen to their stories...
so sit down, and i'll listen to your stories...
sighs..im off to bed..
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