in the past 3 days its been a lonely rollercoaster ride.. just me myself and i riding the abrupt ups and downs...all of em meshed together...and its all been in my head...
im not even gna elaborate..but in a nut shell, im just wondering why bad things happen to good people...and why is it that when someone you care about is hurt, you feel hurt too, even though you dont know how it feels or u didnt have anything to do with it, but u just feel hurt too...
this thing has been haunting me for the past 48 hours,never fully leaving my mind, always there... its like a scene that just keeps repeating over and over again in your head without anyone touching the remote...cause there isnt a remote..u cant do anything to stop it...even the nightmares...all u can do is shake yourself awake and reassure yourself that it didnt happen to you...but then u think "but it happened to them"...
but why? why them? what have they done? and then the injustice of life hits you in the gut..painful, on the target, real. just like those families that have been torn apart on Boxing Day, the kids who didnt deserve it..just victims of some grand master plan..
is it to act as a wake up call for others? a stark reminder that THAT COULD HAVE BEEN YOU? it could have..just be thankful that it wasnt..and feel terrible that it had to happen to them...
remorse, anger, sadness, pain.....helplessness...
im sorry it happened to you..i wish i could give you a sedative to erase all the painful memories..but all i can offer you is what i have offered you before...an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on...
"Life is a grindstone.It either grinds you down or polishes you up. It depends on what you're made of"
and to you, you piece of @#$^%...you dont know me,and I dont know you..at least not yet..but when I do, be sure to watch your back. Cause if i was given a choice wether to have all the riches in the world or have the chance to watch you die a slow and painful death, i would GLADLY give up the money. but for now, ill just draw up, piece by piece, the blueprints for your murder.
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