i just go on and on about what i did for the day, when all i want to let out is what IM FEELING for the day...all the frustrations of changes, all the hurt of things being let go, the sadness of friendship dropped, the confusion of the matters of the heart...
in a way im just scared..of how life is changing so rapidly..at a speed thats faster than even the fastest BMW convertibles can go...in a second,literally a second ure life can alter in a huge way... you might get a phone call to tell you you have a job offer,or an interview, you might crash you're car, you might make a mistake thats going to cost you... and dont slam at me for being dramatic..all of this has happened, all of this is reality, all of this will happen...i was spoilt by the monotony of schooldays,of daily routine that the speed of change while we're in this grey area where change is is too overwhelming...
in an indirect way im writing to you... you used the wrong words when you said 'flare', because flare means to spark suddenly...but how are you to know that the fire wasnt already there, but just hidden, simmering, on the way to boiling point?...and you're actions just seemed like something that i never thought you would do, and the heat of the fire finally came through, cause where were you then? being someone that you think you want to be..what you will be.. but hey, who am i to tell you what to do rite? im just saying that if you let go of things so suddenly, dropping the things that once, you worked so hard to acheive, you're worst nightmare may come true... but nonetheless, what i wrote in that note is true..i dont know if you've ever read it, or if you've thrown it away, but thats what i offer... its just up to you to take...
i've seen you shine, i've seen you broken...
maybe i've taken you for granted?
or maybe you've taken me for granted too..
but i'll see you later today..and i hope, what ive held on to,what ive needed, in those times of darkness, is still there..."ive had the pleasure of seeing our hero kick and scream...and when he calms down, ill turn the sound down,and put my arms around the little lost and found.."
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