"20 minutes of typing about nothing under these circumstances can wield interesting results. It’s like you take an inifinite amount of monkeys and ask them to bash an infinite amount of typewriters for an infinite amount of time, you will get the works of shakespeare. Then when you get the result, shred it, pick one monkey on random and let him bash on the keyboard for 20 minutes. Then you would get this post. And no. I’m not saying I’m employing monkeys to do the dirty work around here. No. PETA would have a field day if they found out."
quoted directly from a rant by someone who has this uncanny ability to go on and on and make you listen to him for hours before u realize that the reason ure silent is because ure trying to translate everything he says into basic english.....
hahaha in a way, i quoted that to say that my posts have no creativity at all... i re-read them and go "shitttttt wat are u on about?" hahaha i think its because this layout is seriously making my muse go M.I.A... i wonder why...
or maybe my muse is M.I.A because i have no inspiration to do anything...
i realize that im very dependant on others to determine my moods... someone can make me switch from being in a very bad mood to a happy mood just by clicking on me online... or someone can make me very depressed just by not hearing from them in a while...
why is that?
why do our peers have that power to change how we see things, how we feel about things, where we stand?
is it because we are insecure about our own views, cloudy about how we feel, unsure on where we stand? because we dont trust our own judgement, so we seek agreement from those who we feel know better?
i used to be proud of myself for what i thought was an independant streak.. not caring what people thought, making my view the most important one...but now im not sure if that streak is still there....
it sucks to doubt yourself.. especially in the times when what you want, or what you think, matters the most...cause at the end of the day, its all about you..and you alone...
now how did i get here? LOL
just wanted to post that quote and say "i miss you" to some people -
in no particular order (if ure not in the list, blame the head not the heart)-
alee, bil, mel, haz, farah, reza, yazid, raeky, kel, mash, rey, yani, faye, sham, azri, zez, najie, syai, dul, shai, fiz...
i havent seen you guys as much as i want to..just wanted to let u know that ure on my mind everyday... and my workmates know a lot about some of u cause i just cant shut up about what great frens all of you are.
=)
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