i didnt want to go to sleep after i posted, so i called up Bil, and we had a major Gaboo Session... thank you so much darlz... she put a few things into perspective, she made me realize that i needed to make the best out of time we have...
i stayed up as long as i could after the phone call because i didnt want to go to sleep.. reason? i was scared to dream of him... but i did inevitably fall asleep, and i DID dream of him...
the dream:
i was riding on an escalator, going up, and i turned and saw him at the foot of the escalator... he was beckoning to me so i started running down the escalator,going against the flow...but i was going nowhere, i kept running and running but i seemed to still be in the same position... in the end i stopped running and yelled "GET ON!", so he stepped on the escalator... i'll meet you at the top...
i woke up feeling a little bit better... put on my favorite baju kurung and bils ring as a good luck charm and went to work... it was really hard to look at him in the eye... i had a few therapy sessions with my workmate in the photocopy room and they advised me on some stuff... and i made up my mind to talk to him because heck i really like the guy..
at lunchtime i got a call from 'orang atu', who was craving for sushi, so he brought me to Excapade Qlap and cheered me up real good =) thanks man, owe u one..
after lunch, fueled by sushi, i finally had a talk to him... the results were great cause all the awkwardness dissapeared... we were back the way we were, and turns out i misunderstood what he meant... sure he still thinks that long distances dont work out, but he still wants to get to know me better, and hopefully when hes ready, we can take it to another level... so were just taking things slow right now... i want to erase all the bad feelings i felt on tuesday..
then before the end of work, he suprised me by ajak-ing me to watch a movie with his sisters that night... and thats how we ended up at the mall killing time with his two sisters before watching the 9oclock show at Bolkiah...
enter aLi:
me and his 2 sisters were walking around on the first floor of the mall while he was at Winmark, when i hear a poklen hiss.. u know the one that goes "psssssssttt pssssssstttt"... but this particular poklen hiss sounded vaguely familiar and had a teeny bit of urgency... looked to my left and saw aLi riding the down escalator, beckoning me.. (ehhhhh i feel like i typed that already...) so i started running towards and down the escalator...macam movie yooooo hahaha when i reached aLi, i terus hit him so i think people who were watching me thought i was running after a boyfren yang ada buat dosa haha
oh, really recommend watching a horror movie with someone you fancy ;)
and goddamn ali for leaving soon.. damn bil for leaving soon.. in under 2 weeks two of my best friends are going to leave the country... damnnn this fact only truly hit me when i caught up with ali and he said "im leaving in a week" *hears gongs in head and feels a punch in the gut*
im going to supress these feelings that i always have when someones going to leave the country, although these feelings are sharper this time cause its TWO people that i love and cherish...
i dont wanna think about it anymore..
*after Sham left for U.K*
GaBoo: hey what would you do if I left the country?
Fae: probably kill myself
GaBoo: ohhhhh thats so sweet, im "kill myself" material!!
i dont wanna think about it This old man, he played one
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He played knick-knack on my thumb
Knick-knack paddywhack, give your dog a bone
This old man came rolling home
This old man, he played two
He played knick-knack on my shoe
Knick-knack paddywhack, give your dog a bone
This old man came rolling home
This old man, he played three
He played knick-knack on my knee
Knick-knack paddywhack, give your dog a bone
This old man came rolling home
This old man, he played four
He played knick-knack on my door
Knick-knack paddywhack, give your dog a bone
This old man came rolling home
This old man, he played five
He played knick-knack on my hive
Knick-knack paddywhack, give your dog a bone
This old man came rolling home
This old man, he played six
He played knick-knack on my sticks
Knick-knack paddywhack, give your dog a bone
This old man came rolling home
This old man, he played seven
He played knick-knack up in heaven
Knick-knack paddywhack, give your dog a bone
This old man came rolling home
This old man, he played eight
He played knick-knack on my gate
Knick-knack paddywhack, give your dog a bone
This old man came rolling home
This old man, he played nine
He played knick-knack on my spine
Knick-knack paddywhack, give your dog a bone
This old man came rolling home
This old man, he played ten
He played knick-knack once again
Knick-knack paddywhack, give your dog a bone
This old man came rolling home
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